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"Take me back to a year ago.. " The title is pure random.

I can't stand this anymore. every time we meet, my heart beats for you, vigorously. But something..
stopped me from saying just a hello..

Its not the same as it used to be, long time ago. When I was feeling like heaven instead of hell now. It all happened just because of one silly mistake, just this one mistake.

I didn't mean to do what I've done. I didn't mean to portray this kinda image. I just wanted to know more about you. I didn't mean to give that impression which I've already imprinted. I guess its too late, obviously. It came out from nowhere for me to post this up out of a sudden.

This is the first time I really like someone, instead of just some random crushes. I've been thinking about you wherever I go. In the car, in my room, I'll just stare to nothing thinking about you. I've been sleeping at 4-5am in the morning, not because I'm doing anything, but its because I can't stop thinking about you.

I tried to forget about you, because I know there is no way this could happen. Just no way it could. Just when I almost get my mind of you, you come back to my mind again. Maybe I think too much. I don't know. At night, when I'm lying on the bed, I usually listen to music and, that is how you suddenly pop into my mind again. From nowhere, whether I'm busy or not, if I see you or even see you coming online, something just *ticks* in my head.

It can't happen, it never will. I know this. I know it won't happen, but why? Why can't I get you off my mind, my heart? Sleepless nights have been suffering enough for me, it was all inside of me, stuck in my heart, felt like death and decay. I felt so much better, when I tell out my feelings to me budds, they lend me their ears, their hearts. But even by doing so, nothing changes... nothing changes..

Before I end this lame shit, I would like to tell the world of how stupid I used to be, the mistake I've done can never be recovered. Maybe I think too much, maybe its just a fairytale.



Would like to thank my friends for hearing me out, when I needed them most,

WeiTuck, WaiJin, Aaron and most of all JiaWing.

Lets just turn gay since we fail to much -.-..... :D




I wish I could have a thousand lives, so I could love you for a thousand times.



Edwin Bak
(a random sore loser)

Hey hey You you! Jacq's Birthday Party on Saturday. No words, just pictures + Descriptions below. Sunday night blogging, duh :).

All in all, we had a great outing. Not sure whether it was as suprising as it should've been. But still, it was great! And..

Happy Birthday JACQ! Have a great time ahead =).

(Check out the video from the previous post) :P




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Holiday is a period of time designated as having special significance for which individuals, a government, or a religious group have deemed that observation is warranted.

HAHA!

Base on this weird definition, holiday is suppose to go by well. The way my holiday was spent and being spent is so different. Two weeks of holiday in June, what a perfect time to do revision eh? for the upcoming trials coming soon. My head says that I wanna study, but my heart, the other way =S. You know the feeling of "OK, I'm gonna start studying from tomorrow onwards" and not happening? Yup, that is indeed what is happening now. Life is just getting so boring these days, lets suicide.

SIGHS

Nothing fun at all was being done during the holidays. Sleeping is my main activity of the day, cause I sleep during the day and night =S. Hanging out with friends + tuition was great but tiring. World Cup is going on too but BORING.

The best moment of my holiday can be said during the overnight at Wei Tuck's. Had a really good time with my best and closest mates, namely JiaWing, Aaron, WaiJin, WeiTuck and not forgetting Henry too. Had a great time (even the rape scene xD) Badminton + Movie was awesome as well :)

I just miss how the way our school was before the new dude came and take over. We can do whatever we want in school without weird permissions needed. Now, we can't even play sports in school peacefully. We can't wear jeans, slippers, even hand phones can't be brought to school, EVEN HOLIDAY TIME!

Well, made my passport today :), took 4 freaking hours at the Damansara Imigression (fck the spelling). Well, some great news is my height improved drastically :D, dengan amat ketara sekali. 2005 - 147cm, 2010 - 173cm. HAH!. But still I fell asleep at that place while waiting =S. Came home and sleep more! xD

Guess thats all for the brief update =). The holiday isn't over yet. So lets all pray together that the holiday can just get better.

























The Mates :), Life is meaningless without you guys.




Edwin Bak

Once upon a time
i believe it was a tuesday when i caught your eye
and we caught onto something
i hold onto the night
you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

were you just kidding'
cause it seems to me
this thing is breaking down we almost never speak
i don't feel welcome anymore
baby what happened, please tell me
cause one second it was perfect now you're halfway out the door

and i stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
and then you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when he said Forever and Always
oh, and it rains in your bedroom
everything is wrong
it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
cause i was there when you said forever and always

was i out of line'
did i say something way too honest, made you run and hide
like a scared little boy
i looked into your eyes
thought i knew you for a minute, now i'm not so sure
so here's to everything coming down to nothing
here's to silence
that cuts me to the core
where is this going'
thought i knew for a minute, but i don't anymore


and i stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
and then you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when he said forever and always
oh, and it rains in your bedroom
everything is wrong
it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
cause i was there when you said forever and always
you didn't mean it baby
i don't think so

back up, baby, back up
did you forget everything'
back up, baby, back up
did you forget everything'

cause it rains in your bedroom
everything is wrong
it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
cause i was there when you said forever and always


oh i stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
and then you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when we said forever and always
and it rains in your bedroom
everything is wrong
it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
cause I was there when you said forever and always
didn't mean it baby
you said forever and always yeah

Blog will be temporarily down for the time being. No, I'm not busy, just lazy to blog.









EdwinBak

Hey,


Realise blog has been kinda dead for quite a long time, a month or so. Fortunately, WoW went down, and so happen I have a little small experience to share :D. No pictures cause we're not gays, boo.

Tuesday, 8th December

Started off the day with some swimming. None of us really know how to swim except WeiTuck. Hes a pro in swimming. Lepak awhile in the pool, Aaron is like a whale in the pool, yea yea boring! At first I was extremely "SAD" when Brandon decided not to come. Suddenly he decided to, my mood suddenly fly sky high :D. Had dinner and all, boring actually. Went back to WeiTuck's place, played some PS2. Fcking addictive ... AT FIRST. Dynasty warrior :S. Played till 4am. All of us begin to felt tired, so we decided to sleep. Quite "FUN" when you sleep in the same room with Brandon, especially when he's still hyper :D. Got humped by him, kena bite also got... but it was fun.. yeah :). We had so much fun until we didn't realise it was already 7am. So we didn't had any sleep.

Wednesday, 9th December.

We didn't wake up :O... cause we didn't had any sleep. Around 9+ we went down and had breakfast, CC-ed for 15 minutes (record), cause everyone was so tired. It was so bad, that on the way back, JiaWing ran so fast up, just so he can get to sleep for 10 seconds while waiting for us. It's that bad. Reach home, sleep for awhile, preparing for our Karaoke trip at 3 with Adrian and the gang. Went to Pavilion first to book the tickets for Couples Retreat. Karaoke at Lauyat Plaza (no idea of spelling). Stomach ache, took a nap. Quite hard to believe how I manage to take a nap when there were people like WeiBin and Azfar there. Scream like Fcks. After the Karaoke, went to watch Couples Retreats. Was kinda boring, but somehow I'm gonna download it :D. Had a big influence on Aaron. He was into Salvadore. Went back, WeiTuck felt tired, so the 3 of us, Me, JiaWing and Aaron onlined, and played Nintendo WII. Tennis. Quite fun, but you will need alot of place. Our online period was kinda fun too. Around 4, decided to sleep. WeiTuck was kinda unlucky that he fell asleep early. Didn't get to hear our convo :). Talked about some weird but extremely important stuffs for us when we're above 18 :D.

Thursday, 10th December

Boring day. Wake up, then played PS2 again. Then JiaWing had to go back. The 3 of us, Me, WeiTuck and Aaron went back to WeiTuck's room to pack up out stuffs and all. Mana tau Aaron still got that Salvadore mood :S. He is one fcking GAY. He can't stop with his BOOM..boom... and encouragement and and... "channeling Karma" ..:S. Total gayass. MANA TAU, WeiTuck also gay. They kinda Gangbanged me. They raped me :(. But not really la, I too strong for them to rape :D. After being raped, of course damn tired la, suddenly my dad called to call. Went back la :)... nice outing, a must have in the near future :D. Some extra info la.. kena rape also not bad :D. No pictures, cause all of us were too handsome for public :D. Did had some lame pics at the pool :)

Lazy to blog. Got married with WoW :D


-Edwin Bak-